I can’t believe how fast time had past.
Work was bad. Extremely bad in the month of October and November. But I guess it’s slowly picking up again. I’m also starting to search for another job. So if you know any opening, please let me know!
Life is pretty alright. A had been giving me amazing emotional support that I needed. He’s always there talking to me, be it mundane stuff or serious matters like career. I wish things could be more than what it is but somehow I know it will never happen. I learnt to just appreciate things right before me and not think so far ahead. It’s nice to just having him there right now. I don’t wanna messed up and send him running away. He’s just so different. it’s always nice to have someone acknowledging my presence and spending time just talking. To have someone who checks on me when I did not take the initiative to msg him. It’s also nice to have someone who ask how I’m getting on with issues in life weeks after I had a major outburst in his car. Its nice to have someone to cuddle with when the world seems so frightening. He seems almost all sides of me and surprising he’s still around and closer than before.
It’s about time I really think about what I want. It’s about time I set some goals so I will have motivation to get back in life. I’m sick of wasting my life away.
The past is always the past. I cannot change it and neither will the hurt go away. I learnt so much in the past one year. I gain so much confidence and also learning not to be affected by other people’s judgment.
I don’t know what lies ahead of me but I know I’m finally ready to make the next step.