Happy Lunar New Year!
I had been pretty busy recently trying to settle my life back to normal and made some changes to my life.
I decided to go gluten free to improve my health. Health is more or less settled with a modified diet. Crohn’s no longer acts up that often as before. I’m still learning to cope with Crohn’s and learning to listen to my body. Next month I’m going for another round of colonoscopy. I hope my intestines are more or less settled.
I also decided to quit my job and look for something else. Maybe accounting isn’t my forte after all or maybe I’m just bored with it. I don’t know but I guess I can only take this chance to figure it out.
I don’t know how life would be like in the future but I can only continue to walk bravely.
There’s always an end to everything.
It’s kinda sad to end things. But I believe the friendship will remains.
I feel kinda sad because I enjoy the companionship, the talks, the whatever we do. But I didn’t have a choice because at the end of the day, we have different agenda. I don’t wanna lose this special friend.
As for now, I guess I can only look keep myself distracted.
I can’t believe how fast time had past.
Work was bad. Extremely bad in the month of October and November. But I guess it’s slowly picking up again. I’m also starting to search for another job. So if you know any opening, please let me know!
It’s about time I really think about what I want. It’s about time I set some goals so I will have motivation to get back in life. I’m sick of wasting my life away.
The past is always the past. I cannot change it and neither will the hurt go away. I learnt so much in the past one year. I gain so much confidence and also learning not to be affected by other people’s judgment.
I don’t know what lies ahead of me but I know I’m finally ready to make the next step.
Some of you might know that I’m going through a very rough patch. Things are not exactly very good and I believe things will turn nasty in the future.
I never wanted things to turn out this way. I don’t feel good about what I have to do. I wanted it to end peacefully so both of us will have a easier time to move on with life.
But as things are not moving the way I wanted to, I do not have a choice but to be firm with what I need to do. It is painful and I guess it’s the best for both of us.
Many people do not understand why I was having such a struggle as I was the one who initiated it. But after my counseling yesterday. I realised that it was the guilt that is holding me back. It was also the fear that something might happen to him when such bad news was delivered to him. I fear having to face the family and friends and the way the society judge me for not giving it another try.
All along I had the answers and I knew what I need to do. And now that the emotions part was cleared. I felt easier to move on and do what I should be doing.
I am slowly learning to talk to people about my separation and hoping people will understand what I’m going through. But it’s never easy. Many people just felt I was creating a big fuss out of nothing. They felt I gave up too easily. They tried to counsel me back into giving him another chance. I was sick of everything so I gave up telling people. It’s only recently I learnt how to let more people know. It’s never easy breaking such news to people. But most might have guess something was not right when they saw my Facebook posts.
I really hope that things will really turn better next year.
I hate to say this but I fell back into depression again for the 3rd time this year.
Depression is a horrible thing. It sucks all my energy and leave me with none to do anything. I hate crying all day long for no reason and I have absolutely no control over my emotions. It’s like I have this heavy clouds above me that refuse to go away. My head is constantly feeling heavy probably with all the problems and thoughts I have.
I need to keep my depression in check. Because I know this will affect my crohn’s and I’m feeling it already. I never haven’t had any tummy pain or aches until recently when I cried really badly. It sucks.
Since I have walked this far, I will have to continue to walk on and learn to be strong. It’s dark times like this I see friends who gave me support, who gives me encouragement, who held my hands, who walked with me, and point the path for me so I will not trip and fall again. I really need to count my blessings and continue to walk this journey.
I always love Risotto. But it’s hard to find a place that sells decent risotto. I decided to order Risotto when I visit Cedele with my friend’s for dinner.
I ordered the red seafood risotto and my friend’s ordered the beef aglio olio.
I didn’t regret ordering it. The risotto was gluten free and it’s supposed to be good for me and Crohn’s. The risotto was flavourful. And the amount of prawn and mussels was just nice. I hate it when places serve just a few piece of seafood which is not satisfying enough. This risotto had earned a spot in my heart! I’m craving for it as I look at the picture now.
Will surely go back for more! There’s no reservation allowed on Fridays and weekends. So remember to go early!
501 Orchard Road
#03-14 Wheelock Place
Tel: 6732 8520
Fax: 6732 8526
Daily: 10am to 10pm
I was in town few weeks ago for my Remicade infusion at Mt Elizabeth. So I went to met up with B for lunch. We were craving for Ayam Penyet so we went to Ayam Penyet Ria at Lucky Plaza Level 1. I’m so glad with Remicade and Aza, I’m able to enjoy food like how I used to. I was able to finish the chili sauce without any pain or diarrhea. Double yay!
We ordered 2 chicken and a plate of crackers and 2 ice tea. The bill came up to about $10 each.
The chicken was normal. Nothing outstanding to mention.
But it was a nice lunch. It’s always nice to catch up with friend.
They have a few outlets at Lucky Plaza, Far East Plaza, Bedok point and Jurong point.